Sorry...

I'm sorry for the way I acted and what I did. I honestly thought if you and her would let everything out, there would be nothing left to say and it would turn out fine. But things don't go as planned, and it backfired. I know it seemed foolish and I'm hurt with guilt and pain, but that's nieve to say. At 1st I didn't want to speak to you, because I thought it wouldn't mean anything to you. I did want to say sorry, but the thought of you not taking the apology made me stop. Even now this seems like a stupid idea, because the one thing that stopped me. This fight was all my fault and you don't even know how bad I feel and the guilt that stings at my heart. Go ahead and think I'm lying, but honestly I'm not. If you were in my shoes about this you would feel this guilt and pain, but you would of apologized straight away. I'm just to scared to do it in person because of the possible outcome. I know things will never be the same because I've acted so foolish, stupid, all those things, but I am honestly sorry...